Wednesday, December 22, 2010

A Thought About Being On Fire....

This wasn't meant to be a blog, it was meant to be a comment, but it got too long, so what the heck. I have thoughts, and feel like I want to get them out here.

The new gym schedule is out, is my big news!! My trainer is teaching a lot more, and at times I can make it! I will take any class Little Evil teaches, which is good as her new classes are STEP classes which I hate. She has promised to use good music tho, so between that and the fact it is HER, I ought to be able to deal with the things.

It doesn't matter what she is teaching, I want to work with her.

We talked about it last night, she and I, and the difference a teacher can make, which I think translates to anything. It's like in music. Someone can get on stage and be technically brilliant but if the passion and LIFE is not there, boring. Or in writing, you can have a lot of information, or a good story, but if you aren't passionate about it, it ain't there.

It's about putting EVERYTHING out there when you do what ever it is you're doing. Every minute. Doesn't matter if you are doing it on stage, or in front of people, or alone in front of your computer, or what ever. If you aren't doing it with passion, if you aren't on fire about it, it is not going to burn. It's not going to be anything more than ordinary, at best. And if it isn't your best, why?

And the difference it can make to you if you are the one learning, the one sitting in the audience, reading the story. If someone throws that spark out there, you can catch it and light a hell of a fire.

There's nothing you can't do if you're on fire.

And if you're on fire, you can make a huge difference to someone else. Throw it OUT there.

Little Evil is like that. There's never a moment when she is teaching a class, or training someone when she isnt giving everything she has to it. Poetry is like that when we ride. Amanda and Jason come to mind on stage, my Boss when he writes. My Derby Friends when they Bout, and when they practice. Giving everything, all the time. Sparks FLY.

I want to get back to living like I am on fire. Not intermittently, but all the time.

There. That's my thought for this morning.

Burn. Brightly.

I think that GK Chesterton said it quite well, in his poem: The Great Minimum, (my personal favorite poem ever) Listen, and read:

It is something to have wept as we have wept,
It is something to have done as we have done,
It is something to have watched when all men slept,
And seen the stars which never see the sun.

It is something to have smelt the mystic rose,
Although it break and leave the thorny rods,
It is something to have hungered once as those
Must hunger who have ate the bread of gods.

To have seen you and your unforgotten face,
Brave as a blast of trumpets for the fray,
Pure as white lilies in a watery space,
It were something, though you went from me today.

To have known the things that from the weak are furled,
Perilous ancient passions, strange and high;
It is something to be wiser than the world,
It is something to be older than the sky.

In a time of sceptic moths and cynic rusts,
And fatted lives that of their sweetness tire,
In a world of flying loves and fading lusts,
It is something to be sure of a desire.

Lo, blessed are our ears for they have heard;
Yea, blessed are our eyes for they have seen:
Let thunder break on man and beast and bird
And the lightning. It is something to have been.

Love and On Fire,


At 08:17 Blogger Phiala said...

There's a whole lot wrapped up in that.

Finding what you burn for.

Taking care of yourself so that you can sustain the fire.

Knowing when to take a break so you don't burn out.

At 08:17 Blogger Jane said...

Two of the people I consider my teachers moved away in the past year and it really became clear how much I depended on them. And miss them.

And good morning!

At 08:18 Blogger spacedlaw said...


At 08:19 Blogger Joan of Dark said...

I so love your blogs...

At 08:26 Blogger Marjorie said...

Wow. You are (both) right about the difference a teacher can make.

And I love that poem, too.

At 09:24 Blogger Beez said...


THOSE are words to start my day with.

Thank you.

At 09:24 Blogger Jonathan said...

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At 09:25 Blogger Jonathan said...

Quoting Chesterton made my day

At 09:32 Anonymous Butcherbaby said...

i could leave a novel in reply to your post, but i'll keep it simple and just say, IAWTC.
i love that poem. definitely saving it for my scrapbook.

At 09:53 Blogger One Sock Short said...

How to do that without burning out though? --Only Sputtering Spark

At 09:59 Anonymous Anonymous said...

Most likely Dressage would be a foreign word to me without having met Becky Oram. From the second she handed me her old Stubben saddle, I knew.
Holly Abbie (@Hollyandtheday)

Happy Holidays.

At 10:18 Anonymous Allie Gator said...

When I first started my weight loss journey I did a ton of STEP classes. Was totally the youngest one in the room, and wow did those older ladies kick my ass in the beginning. I agree, having a positive modivator/trainer/teacher can make all the difference.

A note about longevity and burnout. Make sure you are doing things for yourself that help you recharge. Massages, accupuncture, chiro, reading time... I often make the mistake of feeling like if I'm not always doing-doing-doing I'm wasting time. But scheduling down time to recharge (even if it's a walk in the woods) will do wonders for your and your burning plans... ;)

At 10:39 Blogger vampi said...


very inspirational.

i'm so thankful i found your blog and the fiends. ya'll are wonderful.

At 10:46 Blogger EmilyOliveP said...

I think you need a theme song.

At 10:57 Anonymous Morrica said...

Fantastic! Fabulous! I hope you don't mind if I translate parts of this to quote in my Swedish blog about being a teacher?

Thank you for being so increadibly inspiring all the time!

Merry Christmas

At 10:59 Blogger Linda said...

I bake. I cook. Those are passions for me. Having battled weight & finding my way closer to FIT... Food is important.

If my energy isn't right - I don't cook or bake. What you put in, is what you get back. Time to recharge is important.

Teaching & finding the right teachers stokes the fire.

Thanks for sharing your fire, Lorraine. You are inspiring!

At 12:57 Blogger Chantrelle said...

Wow. I love the beauty you bring to my life Lorraine. I want to frame that poem and read it daily.

Before I got to the part of the post when you mentioned Jason, I was thinking of just that. We went to sushi last night, I talked with him for FoodPorn for an hour or so. He is lovely and sweet and wonderful and a little shy. Then he steps on stage and brings down the house...or really, brings together the house. He had us all up on our feet tickling each other...I mean, who can get a room of adults to do that! FIRE on stage!

The Monsters of Accordion show was full of fire, wish you all could have been there.

I am so happy to have each of your flames warming my life.

At 13:06 Blogger Martha W. said...

Thanks for posting that amazing poem. I'd never read it before. And thanks to Allie Gator for the thoughts on reading and walking in the woods to recharge.

At 13:18 Blogger dabbler said...

HO! (as in the Native American recognition of a TRUTH, rather than ho-ho-ho, as in the seasonal greeting....)

Thanks, lorraine. i need reminding that I don't have to do it all myself. Pretty arrogant of me, actually! Teachers are good.

At 15:52 Blogger Dragonsally said...

I am going to read and reread this Lorraine. Such inspiration and truth.

At 15:52 Blogger Dragonsally said...

drat, tickywickywoo

At 15:59 Anonymous JamilahandCatz said...

That is one hell of a blog. It inspired me to get some fire into my life again, too! First thing I did was starting to plan a trip to The Isle of Skye for Spring!! Whopeee!!! Thanks a lot Lorraine!You are the greatest! Regards to the Bengals!

At 16:04 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Thank you , All. I am very glad I decided to write out what I was trying to think of.

Good Advice, Allie, as always, my thanks. YOU are a huge part of my inspiration, you know.

Morrica, translate away, what ever you like!

I had a HUGE breakthru riding this morning. I felt like I was actually riding for the first time in my life.

It really IS just sitting there, and when I think how many hours I have put in to learn that....All abs, all abs, it's the CORE. (Something Poetry has been TRYING to teach me for months.

Well, I got it now. Ready for NEXT!

Actually, to be truthful, I am ready to go home, and if not be on FIRE, smolder for a bit.

At 16:25 Blogger Chantrelle said...

Discovered this guy at the Jason Webley show last night. Many of you will love this. Have a listen.

At 16:28 Blogger Marjorie said...

*Sigh* my washing machine seems to have died.

On the plus side, I successfully met my turkey-supplier (in an icy lane, by moonlight) so we shall have turkey onSaturday :-)

At 18:25 Blogger Pi R Squared said...

Hi everyone! Great blog Lorraine!

Been recouperating, so my fire has been embers of late, but fire...real Fire (well, not pyro fire, but soul's fire-you all know what I mean...)is the goal for 2011. Re-kindled, and all that.

Midwinter greetings to all!

At 18:57 Blogger EmilyOliveP said...

I guess your theme song could be that poem, with a tune added to match the words ... yes, I still have my sights set on this theme song thing. I picked songs for Ben and Jack, you know, just some popular rock songs for their theme songs. And they refused to choose one for me. I was extremely hurt and have not forgiven them.

At 22:43 Anonymous Wendy Withers said...

I think her theme song should be ass tanka set to music.

More ass tanka!

At 00:54 Blogger Na said...

beautiful thoughts, beautifully put, and i love love love love love the poem.

that is not where i am on my path; my fire is banked. i expect that when i'm ready, ways will appear and i'll greet them and walk out and bring back my flame.

but for all you folks On Fire, i'm happy for you and grateful for the light and warmth.

At 05:34 Blogger Beez said...

Taking gimp self to work now.

Quichie, have a BADASS (Nice Ass!) Derby Christmas.

At 05:45 Blogger Martin Millar said...

Hi Lorraine, that's a good poem, hope you're about to have a good holiday season.

At 08:17 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

My Theme song. I can't wait. If I had had more coffee I might be tempted to suggest a few...

GImp, Beez? I missed what?

Hi Martin!!! It's a great poem, but just to be clear, it's not MINE, you know. I'm not in CHestertons league, not sure ANYONE is.

SNOW??? TOmorrow?????

Oh my no that is NOT in the PLAN!!!! I am flying out to Indy and my Derby Family for the weekend!!!!!!!!!

This is NOT happening!!!!!

At 09:03 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Exactly HOW am I meant to be a Fearless Leader if I have NO FIENDS????

Are you , like, all on Holiday already?

At 09:09 Blogger One Sock Short said...

Quite the opposite, O Fearless Leader. Frantically trying to get through a project that needs to be finished before the holiday weekend. In fact, I shouldn't even be here, so pretend I'm not.

At 09:12 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Who said that???

At 09:22 Blogger Phiala said...

On holiday? Hardly. I'm at work, wrestling with something I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH. *grumble*

Leaving at noon today, though, as long as this project is under control.

Home until Christmas morning, then off to the land of no internet until Tuesday.

Do you think I can write half a novel in 5 days?

At 10:00 Anonymous Wendy Withers said...

I'm at work with coffee and chocolate. Also, I checked my grades for last semester. All A's, and I have a 3.857 GPA between all of the classes I have taken at UNO.

At 10:10 Blogger vampi said...

ha! i am around being lazy playing wii
how would you prefer to be amused dear leader?

At 10:19 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Oh anything really, I'm not strict about such things, I just like to know where you all are, what you are doing, what your plans are and do you REALLY think I have a NICE ASS?

That's it , really.

At 10:25 Blogger vampi said...

you do have a damn fine ass.

i'm currently basking in the glow of my vacation which started yesterday. this is the peaceful bit as i will not be with family.

at some point today i will cease my slothy behavior and tackle laundry and general tasks i have been ignoring.

At 10:32 Blogger Jess said...


Where: Darkest Lincolnshire

Doing: Laundry, Twitter, Being Bored

Plans: Avoid eating the chocolates to stave off boredom. Go to Pub at some point because Thursday night is Pub Night. May or may not watch The Boys play pool.

Ass: Honey, your ass is ON FIRE.


At 10:32 Blogger Marjorie said...

You have a FINE ASS, Quichie.

I am still at work (and not noodling around on the internet when I should be doing work stuff. Nope. Not me. workworkworkwork)

Tomorrow working til midday then off to deepest Devon to spend Christmas with the family.

At 10:37 Blogger Jess said...

Seeming more likely that you'll actually make it all the way to Devon, then?

At 10:40 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...


I like that.

Well, my Ass is going to work now. Then I have a 2 hour Death Workout with my Trainer, which is good because I am so excited about leaving tomorrow morning the only way I will be able to sleep tonight is if I fall there unable to move.

Did I mention I am going to Indy to spend Xmas with my Derby Family?

At 10:42 Blogger Jess said...

You take that flaming ass to work and SET THAT PLACE ABLAZE.

Yay Derby Christmas! That will be fun.

At 10:44 Blogger vampi said...

ooh fun derby holiday!

see i was going to say something about ass on fire, but that is usually something i try to avoid...

At 10:44 Blogger Marjorie said...

As long as it doesn't snow tonight or tomorrow morning I should be able to get there alright. sister #1 has made it, poor brother is having a train journey a bit like yours, but it apprently on the correct side of London now...

At 10:47 Blogger Jess said...

We got there all right. Worst bit was only having about ten minutes to get from Kings Cross to Paddington and on the train. And then having to stand all the way to Peterborough because they ditched all the seat reservations to make up for all the cancellations the day before. #notbitter

At 10:48 Anonymous Wendy Withers said...

Location: Work in New Orleans, LA

Task: Designing marketing materials

Holiday Plans: Giftmas Eve with friends for dinner. Giftmas at synagogue eating Chinese food and watching Everything is Illuminated.

Current Plans: Eating sandwiches leftover from yesterday's office holiday party.

This year's Giftmas is soooo much better than last year's Giftmas.

At 11:00 Blogger vampi said...

i'm pretty proud of scoring a rental car upgrade and much cheaper rate. i'm no where near quiche magical, but i was happy.

ps i hope every one has a safe and uneventful holiday travel experience

At 11:52 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Yup! Deby Holiday with Joan of Dark! I hear it's to be a lot of jammies and Twilight Zone. Sounds like most Derby Events, really.

At 11:59 Blogger spacedlaw said...

No I at the gym, walking my 10,7 kilometers. Because I wasn't tired enough. Meh.
Now I am at home and on holiday.
This calls for a little barley wine.

At 12:01 Blogger spacedlaw said...

Of course you can, Phiala.

And, of course, your ass is fabulous, Lorraine.

At 13:29 Blogger vampi said...

plotting our "everything is closed on christmas and we aren't christian" dinner, because i'm tired of my usual standby of chinese. we have no friends or family to dinner crash this year.

so far i have apple crumble
white bean hummus
and balsalmic roasted mushrooms.
just need a main protein dish or some more veggie dishes, haven't decided which.

what feasts are the other fiends plotting?

At 13:36 Blogger Phiala said...

Crabcakes and pumpkin pie. Not sure what sides yet. Nick's family is Christian so we spend the day with them.

At 13:38 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

Joan of Dark says she will make me scones. Or Bagels. Or bread.

SO apparently: "Wheat"

At 13:50 Blogger Jess said...

Goose. #goosevirgin

At 13:58 Blogger vampi said...

scones sound amazing!

also goose, never had it. if it's more like dark meat though, i won't try it. i don't dig on dark meat. only breasts for me ;)

At 14:20 Blogger Marjorie said...

Turkey. Free range and yummy. And probaly some beef a day or two later.

At 16:34 Blogger vampi said...

omg. i found fiend tv

this is my new favorite tv show.

there seems to be a small marathon on discovery right now:)

At 17:38 Blogger Beez said...

I am Gimp-O because I may (or may not) have broken my toe. Doc & i didn't bother with x-rays because it get's treated the same no atter what.
Sucky part is we had/have a massive amount of catering to get out the door today and tomorrow.
Good part- DRUGS! Also, plenty of snow for ice packs.

We are having shrimp scampi and fettucini for Christmas dinner. Haven't decided about dessert.

Something light on Eve as Spawn will be at his dad's side of things and I will have worked all day. I think it's going to be all fun munchies like baked brie and bruschetta and and..stuff.

Is your Fine Ass on it's way to Indy yet?

At 18:29 Blogger Chantrelle said...

I'm here but not online much. My dad and stepmom are here today for early xmas. Tomorrow we have our major present opening day so we can play wiht all the new toys before we get on a plane to Oz on xmas day. Hectic craziness trying to cram everything in before we leave!

Good news is that hubby has an extra laptop so i'll get to be online there even if he's at work :)

At 19:06 Blogger dabbler said...

Braised lamb shanks tomorrow night.

Christmas dinner will be cafeteria turkey at mo-in-law's retirement community, but it makes her happy at 82, so who am I to complain? She will be making the rutabagas and creamed onions necessary to the event (in her head) because they aren't supplied.

And then lasagna with the whole in-law family the day after Christmas. I'm making dessert. Guess I should figure out what.

And finally, hubby and kids are doing something for me on Monday as a late birthday dinner.


At 19:26 Blogger vampi said...

creamed onions?

yes too much food. we are only 2 and have a small kitchen. i'm still planning my meal, but i am loving hearing what everyone else is enjoying.

trip to oz, how exciting!

At 19:33 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

She killed me. Not sure where I got the idea "Hey, two hours training with Little Evil, what the heck, sounds like fun"

I really, really need food. But it's very far away. I know if I get up and try I will never make it to the kitchen.


On the upside, I feel great in my head. Very powerful.

On the other downside I left the steaks I bought for the Bengals this weekend on the counter, while I went and worked out.

Steaks are now GONE.

At 21:25 Blogger Dragonsally said...

I'm not surprised the steaks are gone...clearly the Bengals decided this was an early homage to them.

Our local radio station is getting kids to ring in with jokes.
I just heard this cute one.

How do you wake up Lady Gaga?
Poke her face!


Just in case Fiends are heading out early, safe travels and have a great weekend.

At 23:09 Anonymous Wendy Withers said...

All of my Giftmas meals will be taken care of.

Giftmas Eve lunch: leftover chicken curry.

Giftmas Eve dinner: unknown food at my friend's house.

Giftmas lunch: cold kosher lunch (probably different salads, tuna salads and fish, and bread or bagels).

Giftmas dinner: kosher Chinese food.

At 00:09 Blogger ariandalen said...

Hmm...I must be feeding my fire(s) the wrong stuff.

Hi, Butcherbaby, Holly Abbie, and Jamilah! You are now Fiends! Here are your very own white, buckled jackets. If you'll look around, you'll find whatever you need to personalize your jacket; it needn't remain white. :) Don't be afraid to leave more comments!

Ms. Fabulous, your ass is absolutely callipygian. :) Have an uneventful pair of flights, and have fun with the Indy derby gals!

At 00:12 Blogger spacedlaw said...

I don't really know or care. Something fishy in case Cesare do care some.
I have some scallops in the freezer and zucchine that need eating, so most likely this will turnout as
roasted scallops on a bed of creamed zucchine.

At 06:25 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

ACK!!!! It's , well, yucky out there. Nothing I can't handle or drive thru, but does NOT make for any fun. Hmmph.

And what is this about a possible New Years Eve BLIZZARD here????? Early predictions say HUGE storm. Here.

At 06:34 Blogger Phiala said...

New Year's is a ways off yet; predictions will certainly change before then.

But today? Be careful, have fun!

At 06:43 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

They used the phrase "Analyzing Computer Weather Patterns" I'm not yet worried tho, if I get GET to the gig, the place is a hotel, and I can come prepared to stay there.

Today will be slippery, but if one knows this, one drives slowly and leaves early. I am ready to go NOW!!!

Well, no, not quite. I'm in my robe and need to shower and have more coffee. But SOON!!!!

At 06:47 Blogger Phiala said...

I'm certain they'd take you unshowered and in your robe, but you should really have that coffee!

At 10:07 Anonymous Wendy Withers said...

I think anyone with half a brain would accept you unshowered and in your robe. Be careful! Use those chain things you people put on your wheels!

At 12:10 Blogger Hellie said...

Christmas hugs to all fiends! Enjoy your festive celebrations. We are having our first Christmas in our new home. My folks have made it through the icy weather from Bristol. we've solved the heating problems and we have mountains of chocolate. Perfect.

At 13:56 Blogger Marjorie said...

Glad your folks arrived, Hellie. I've made it down to my parents house in Devon - we have mountains of chocolate & nuts and lots of booze, and no need to go out ( except for bellringing tomorrow morning) for ages. Bliss.

At 19:23 Blogger Dragonsally said...

Dressed up and waiting for P to wake up , so we can get to Fi's place, I indulge in some dagginess...which seems to have been truncated somewhat. *shrug*
for those not on LJ/DW

At 20:38 Blogger Isis said...

I once went to a "thing" for my job, and myself..there was a statement that has stuck with me..
"When you live your life like it matters, it does".

At 00:22 Blogger DataGoddess said...

I think my fire is banked, smoldering under the thin layer of ash until my body is ready to move without (much) pain anymore.

And today is the day I have spent doing the most I've done since before surgery, and the pain is worth it - I'm sitting quiet as a mouse in my brother's house.

Q, you going to still be in Indy on Sunday? We'll be driving through on our way home, could stop and see you...

At 07:47 Blogger Marjorie said...

Merry Happy Christmas / Midwinter Holidays, everyone:-)

At 09:26 Blogger Jess said...

I'm pissed! (In the I've-been-at-the-booze sense, not the I'm-rather-cross one.) Is it time for Doctor Who yet?

At 11:24 Blogger Jane said...

Oh, the good pissed!

Envious of Christmas Dr Who...

At 11:31 Blogger Jess said...

But they're showing it on BBC America at 9:00 tonight!

At 12:11 Blogger Jane said...

Jess, no cable, no dish and the antenna on the top of our roof has been out of commission - I'm not sure how long. No Dr Who here :-(

At 12:17 Blogger Phiala said...

Morgan got a toy for Christmas.

Oh my...

At 12:23 Blogger Beez said...

Fierce Attack-Cat Morgan! Of course he didn't fall off of the couch.
....nothing to see here, move along.

Wolfie is looking -very- patient. I hope he gets all the snow/present/joy and none of the flash/ohgodWHY.

Waiting for y household (who have declared a pyjama day) to be a bit more up and about.

Meantime, more tea!

At 13:52 Blogger LihuaEmily said...

Merry Christmas! I rejoice for Doctor Who! (Yeah, you all know it's me; I had no time to switch accounts.)

At 13:58 Blogger Chantrelle said...

Merry Christmas Fiends!!

Love you all. Thank you for your wisdom, your love, your craziness and your being.

We're off to Oz. See you in the future.

At 14:23 Blogger FabulousLorraine said...

engals: A Christmas Play in one act...

New post is up!

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